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4/30/00 Sunday. Outside with Phil's laptop. Delightful. Friday night Pine had a party. About midway through the night (midnight) I was thinking about how tried I was and how many beers I had already finished and I was sure I was gonna get the hell out and then four lagers and some box wine later, it was 4am and I was staggering. But staggering is fun and goddamn if I am not more personable when I am that drunk. I had a great time, met a lot of interesting people. Heh heh. Saturday morning: coffee date and a walk in the park. Later I napped and then finally met Mary Chen and friends at Becky and Jim's for a really great dinner. Ah. Its just one of those weekends. The weather has been exceptional; there have been strange coincidences, secret trysts, and great food. What more can I ask for? Not much.

4/26/00 work sucks. I love my company but I now hate my job. whatever, I can now be counted amongst the million of americans that hate what they do. I'd better suck it up. Tonight the Dismemberment Plan is playing at 4040. That's kinda exciting. Now If I can just make it through this day... Also, Lavay Smith & Her Red Hot Skillet Lickers are fun and good.

4/22/00 christ. here is an heartfelt apology to all you I have not emailed or replied to in... forever. I am not going to name names cause the list is to embarrassing (I hope you know who you are OR actually I hope you don't, cause that would mean that maybe you never noticed that I didn't hit that reply button!) and I am not gonna start in with all my excuses cause, you would never believe a word of it. But just know that there isn't a day that goes by that I don't feel the guilt. OH GOD, the guilt! Now that my little life is settling back down, that I am gonna do my damnedest to communicate with ya'll. Ha. you should try reaching me by phone, then you would know how really truly awful I am. Just ask my mom.

4/20/00 I can't stop listening to Andrew Bird's "Music of Hair". Specifically the song "minor beatrice". I have an mp3 that I wanted to link to, but its a 10 minute song and thus about 9 mbs. and I thought, "why bother? (who would actually download that just cause I said it was good and who reads this shit anyway? and what if they did and thought it wasn't any good and made some rash judgment about my taste and person?)". But I gotta tell you, it rocks. That man has got something goin on. This week has been sort of unforgiving. I was in a super low mood yesterday, mainly cause I was yelled at. a lot. and you know, that always has a way of getting me down. yes, of course. Today however is much nicer. There is sun and I have not been yelled at and I have a hot movie date. Well, I mean I have a date to go see a hot movie. Or well, that is to say, I am going to see a movie with somebody. I could talk myself out of handcuffs.

4/15/00 Day: Mary and I spend a rainy afternoon curled up on her couch talking, smoking, and watching movies. We watched the "Ultimate Octopus" (perfect nature special for best friends) and "Walking and Talking" (perfect best friend flick for best friends). Night: The Bowl Of Fire. Holy shit. They are SO good to me. They just keep getting better and better. Additionally, Colin Bunn provided Mary and I with free drinks, which as you can imagine has won him a soft and kind spot in my heart. Actually, I find myself growing fonder and fonder of all of them with every passing show. They are very sweet boys. I am going to marry them.

4/12/00 Excerpt from email to a friend, cut and pasted here cause I am lazy! <excerpt> I have had a rather pleasant couple of days, save for the crippling sinus headache I found myself afflicted with early yesterday morning. At some point late in the day I broke down and got myself to a Rite Aid where I purchased the appropriate over the counter acetaminophen pseudoephedrine hydrochloride pain reliever/nasal decongestant and now all is well! What a world we live in! In addition, my beloved marychen is home from her vacation in "the islands" and I am safely and happily recovering from my withdraw. (symptoms of which included: irritability, irrepressible babbling to an unfortunate few, headache, mild depression and dry mouth). Going to DC this weekend to see above mentioned marychen and "the bowl of fire" AND I found out yesterday that I have a ticket to see elliot smith which pleases me to no end! right. so I have had a fine couple of days. </excerpt> and finally, I did my taxes today and I am gettin money money money back! all is well.

4/11/00 also right. I want an imaginary pink elephant friend. I will call him "Master Tootington the 3rd" We will have fantastic adventures together.

4/11/00 It's not like I have read the waste lands or anything, and I can't help fear that this little quote is a bit over used now, but still, I love it and I feel it: April is the cruelest month breeding lilacs out of the dead land, mixing memory and desire, stirring dull roots and spring rain. t.s.e.

4/07/00 That migraine wrecked me. Its friday and I still feel it. If I can even keep up, there is a lot going on this weekend. Friday: first friday Saturday: human bbq Sunday: the lost film festival

4/05/00 "can I help you, miss?" "why, yes. I would like a migraine with the works, extra excruciating pain and a side of vertigo." what a fucking drag. i dosed myself up on every drug I have, including painkillers and xanax in hopes to sleep, to no avail. I ate stale bread to soothe my nauseated stomach, to no avail. Its 1:30 am and I really need to sleep. crap it all. didn't I say I would have something to complain about today?

4/04/00 I was in the worst, most pitiful mood today. I was gonna say something about job stress and useless therapy appointments, but now after three beers and a healthy dose of MelissaP's boobs, all is well and I don't need to complain any more. perhaps tomorrow.

4/03/00 Monday is "built to spill" day! My gift from BlindGift.com has arrived. COOKIES! YAY! The note has riddled with clues, or so it would seem. Apparently the letter "C" is supposed to mean something. Of course the first thing I thought was, "Christ! I got Cookies from Christ! Maybe I am not going to hell after all." But we all know Christ didn't send me Cookies... Caligula, Catherine the Great, Chalres-n-charge? The best part was the the note itself was that it was actually signed: "a big gay fan." That's awesome. I have a big gay fan! But wait, Anonymous(C), are you reading this? You'd better come clean. I am dying of curiosity. And also, are you really gay? email me.

3/31/00 - 4/2/00 weekend in review. Friday: Spent the day on the back porch with Leah and Samuel drinking iced coffee and beer and watching the cats chase butterflies and climb trees. Friday night went to a Gyro Advertising party. hahaha: The guy who let us in was wearing a tux haha. The night ended with a healthy dose of 1026 break dancing and plenty of broken bottles. Saturday: Spent the better part of sunny Saturday over at Pine playing games and doing crimes with the Philadelphia Radical Surrealist Front. That day/night my house mates were having a BBQ. I missed most of it. buh. Sunday: Cleaned house. Had Pizza and TV in new surroundings.

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