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12/28/00 So my parrot and I are pair-bonding. I thought I would be able to avoid this. I was so enjoying being single, but I am not that strong. I need love and she is willing to give it. How could I say no? Hey, and what's more, I got love to give. And who could be more deserving then that tiny, sweet, jovial, feathered girlfriend of mine?? I am really myself with her, I mean really. Its cool. She appreciates me for who I am. You know, for my endless supply of cashews and hair ties, not for some superficial or shallow reason. Man, she knows me. We make a good couple; I got the brains, she's got the looks. She likes neck rubs, I like to give 'em. I like to read books, she likes to eat them. We both dig naps and shit, do we both love corn chips or what?!? A match made in heaven. Or at least one made at the St. John's Episcopal "peppermint mouse" silent auction where I got her for the minimum bid. Its all still a little tentative though. I think we have a lot of trust issues to work out. She's still afraid I will leave her and not come back or you know like, step on her or something. I still cant let her anywhere near my ear lobes with out feeling like I am really exposed. Often I feel I have have to withdraw and get some space... I'll know that we're all good, that its true love when she starts regurgitating food for me. Until then I guess we are just gonna try to take it slow. |
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12/21/00 This morning I roused myself without the aid of my alarm clock. I looked at my watch and it read 11am which was a lot later then I had hoped to get up. I had to be at work by noon and I had some errands to run and also had hoped to hook up some quality Sport time before I left the house. Ah, it was not to be so. There was simply not enough time. I rush about (I notice Leah is really late for work too, but WAY later then myself... she is due in her office at 9). I spend about 5 seconds with the parrot. I am out of the house in a half an hour. I catch the trolley quick quick. I get down to center city, spend more time then is in any sense right in a Mail Boxes Etc and I then head towards work. I even forgo my favorite hot beverage cause I am already so late- Its 11:58 by my watch now. I grab some unforgivably bad coffee at a truck and am in the office by 12:05pm or as it turns out, 9:45am. This really threw me. I was in a state of disbelief for a while. Especially cause my watch really did say 12:06 and it was in fact really 9:45. I sat down at my desk having magically gained over two hours and began my work... It really took me a while to settle down though. There was something shocking and unsettling about having so completely misjudged the hour. Kinda the same way you might feel if you causally and without much thought took the elevator and entered your office suite only to find that you were in the wrong building all together. ok. well maybe my little time slip is not that extreme, but I bet the induced sensation is the same, only as a matter of degrees not as intense. I guess my watch had stopped some time before midnight and then started up again hours and hours later. I dont know. weird stuff.
Tonight I have a dinner date with Melissa and a drink date with Clare. |
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12/20/00 ok, so you are dying to know what I have been up to. I am sure. I have been reading about orchids (I am becoming mildly obsessed) and buying christmas gifts and playing with my parrot (I am already way obsessed). Oh and just today I started to learn origami again, I was doing good, I had skipped ahead and then got stuck on a stupid fish base, rabbit-mountain fold thing. crap. or I mean carp... I was trying to make a carp. What else? yeah christmas. I went all out this year. There will be much giving. There will be MUCH giving. Also christmas bonuses rock. And also I am leaving on the 29th for LA where with much style and bombast, I will celebrate new years and a 10th anniversary with Ms Marychen. right on. |
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12/12/00 romantic weekends spent all heldup in fancy hotels rule. |
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