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1/30/00 Yesterday Josh, Holly, Kate, Goose, Nathan and I went to the Insectarium. Holy fuck! Probably one of the coolest places I have ever been in my entire life (right up there with the National Zoo Invertebrate House (duh, I cant find a link on their site to the Invertebrates) and the Mutter Museum) I got to play with a whip scorpion, a 5 inch long millipede (sadly this was the best pic I could find. The one I played with looked NOTHING like this, she was slim and shinny with pretty yellow and brown stripes and and her little feet tickled SO much!), a giant hissing cockroach (ok, this one freaked me out. a lot. I could only hold this beast for about a second before I flipped and almost dropped it and then I flipped some more and then the nice Insectarium lady took it from me) and FINALLY, my all time favorite: a beautio adult female Macleay's Spectre. She was gorgeous and sweet and I have decided that I am going to raise them. I will love them and they will be mine. my oh my, what a day. Also I solemnly swear that I will NEVER roller skate again. EVER.

1/27/00 This after noon I ran into my Soul Mate in a McDonald's. I knew it was him the second I saw him and briefly, very briefly our eyes met in spontaneous and irrational agreement. As we walked in opposite directions I thought about what our life together would be like, all the simple perfection of it. Ok. That's not true, but I did see a cute guy at the McDonald's. Its just that there is a gypsy curse upon my head involving all things of a romantic nature so its fun to pretend that I might actually have had even fleeting/chance encounter with my "perfect match" rather then never at all. (and my I go straight to hell for saying it.)

1/25/99 I'm fucking pizza-licous! What the hell in wrong with this city? We can't take a little snow?! At 3pm today I went out to lunch and walked in a big 6 block circle and everyplace I would even consider eating was closed and its not like my standards were too high; the fucking McDonald's was closed! So for lunch I had microwave popcorn and "pizza flavored" Pringles. "they're Pizza-licious!" oh, crap it all.

1/24/00 at 9 am this morning a stranger stopped me in the street and asked me out to dinner. that was very odd. I said, "No, I am on my way to work." Oh! My blind day was canceled, I forgot to mention that. It was snowing (he was driving up from Delaware), I was hungover (in SUCH a way). It just wasn't meant to happen.

1/20/00 ok. ok. One of my favorite people in the whole wide world is in town this week and I saw him last night and we drank and drank and drank some more. We stopped drinking at around 2am and its 8:45pm right now and well, I think I am still drunk cause this is way beyond hungover, this is maybe still under the evil influence. OK. I had a great fucking time. and oh shit yeah! I have a blind date tonight! HA! I guess maybe its supposed to be a bit more casual then "blind date" but I just love saying that, "I have a blind date tonight' I have a blind date in less then an hour actually. hoo ha. Poor guy, I can hear the set up now: "Mars, she's swell. She into heavy drinking and scrapple, you heard me right, scrapple. Hope youre not a vegetarian. She hasn't bathed, slept, or eaten in several days, she smells like an ash tray and she has NO IDEA how she got all those knots in her hair, but I think you'll find that underneath all that she is really just a delightfully down to earth girl"

1/17/00 this weekend at Hazel was exceptionally domestic. for my part, I cleaned house, read books, did much needed laundry, watched movies and baked cookies. All I gotta say is screw chocolate chip cause there aint nothing like homemade oatmeal cookies. nothin.

1/14/00 holy living fuck, its cold! last check: 19 degrees, wind-chill in Center City: 17 below. fuck fuck fuck. I was closing my front door this morning, you know pulling it tightly shut so I could lock it and the metal handle was so cold, that when I removed my hand it stung (burned?) for about a half an hour. that'll teach me. Also, I am sick. generally during the days I feel ok. I have been goin to work and all. My major complaint there is that I am already a touch horse form the sickness, but by noon, I have done so much talking that my throat is so so so swollen and sore. Anyway that's not so bad, what sucks is everyday around 6pm the fever comes back. shiver Its like a bad dream. It takes all my energy and concentration just to get myself home. And then it takes all of my energy and concentration to keep myself awake till an hour that I can go to sleep without risk of waking up at 3 in the morning. boo hoo poor me. Been reading "Tesla: Master of Lightening" god bless that freak.

1/09/00 I dont know how I stayed out until 4 in the morning or how I fell asleep on the couch watching "a bug's life" or HOW I woke this morning at 9:30 or WHY I cant fall back to sleep. crap it all. I did learn two new yo-yo tricks. that is good.

1/07/00 OK, the guy at the cigar shop dislikes my labrette. "So, how long you gonna keep that thing in there?" ggrrr... as long as I like, jerko. OH and also, my company is going to run ads during the Howard Stern show. The fucking Stern show! I am disgusted. Alls I can think is that this means more porn. joy. And finally, I feel like complete shit to day. I am convinced I am going aphasic (again)... I am having the hardest time typing and talking.. my words are all jumbled. I am just a mess. somebody put me out of my misery.

01/03/00 creepy. happy big gay y2k. so what's new? I'll tell you: I can knit! or that is to say I have been knitting. MelissaP sat me down Saturday night with yarn and needles and tried to teach me simple knitting. what a fucking debacle. Knitting is something you maybe shouldn't try to learn when you have been drinking all day... I'll be lucky if I get a dammed pot holder out of this, but I am gonna keep trying. Knitting is a very womanly thing to know and lord knows If I am ever gonna fulfill #4 of my resolutions, I should be trying to be more feminine or something. Oh, to that end, I have been hunting around for a new crush. I found one. It's rather embarrassing especially since, I had to expend some effort to find a good picture of him, this meant suffering through all sorts of "Official Unofficial" fan sites. shit, nothing could be more gay. In any case my current crushes page should be updated soon.

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